| here lies eddy noble. he saved the world. a lot. |
[22 Mar 2005|06:35pm] |
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you can't imagine how many vampires i've actually dusted or how many demons i've actually killed. those things that live on fear, doubt, blood, that go bump in the night. i am indeed the thing that they fear. i am the thing that "bumps back". i do in fact know what lurks in your closet, because it is my destiny to destroy it. i am the chosen one, because i am not perfect. i am the greatest peace you will ever know, because i am the greatest pain you will ever fear. yes, a paradox. but it is not just okay... it is my calling. "i walk a lonely road... the only one that i have ever known...
don't know where it goes... but it's only me and i walk alone..."
"night is my companion, and solitude my guide...
would i spend forever here... and not be satisfied?"
glorificus, however, was is not a demon. no. much like caleb, glory was is far too powerful to have to hide herself... far too powerful to only come out at night or to merely lurk in closets. glory was is a god. those gods are funny things they are. because as powerful as they are, they need us to survive. we are nothing more than just weak little people, yet, without us, they would simply fade away. powerless to save themselves. it's because of this that i never saw glory kill anyone. instead, she was is going around and stealing everyone's sanity. and for the longest time, i never understood why. that is, of course, until now. glory stole the voice of someone i love.
when it comes to vamps and demons, the truth is that scoobies are more than capable to deal. the only question was is how long it will take for them to acknowledge their true power. but the chosen will forever still be needed. always. because there are forces out there that wield power you can't even begin to imagine. yes, glory stole the voice of someone i love. and now, i'm out for god blood.
this journal is over. the end.
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| i told you i wasn't interesting |
[21 Mar 2005|08:05pm] |
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michelle branch - goodbye to you (buffy version) |
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| continuation of tori sarah |
[21 Mar 2005|02:22am] |
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vanessa carlton - annie |
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Bliss
You're a thinker, you like do to things on your
own...you've been wondering how mcuh freedom of
your own do you have, and testing those
boundries.
What Tori Amos Song are you?
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| new layout |
[20 Mar 2005|08:14pm] |
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nelly furtado - forca |
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i brought my layout back to willaraville (chose 5.19 'tough love'). comments? i want to leave it like this and just move onto my new journal. but i wonder if 5.22 'the gift' would be more fitting. you know, for 'the death of eddy noble'. =/
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| 8.01 (page 192) |
[19 Mar 2005|11:03pm] |
He said the dead had souls, but when I asked him
How that could be---I thought the dead were souls,
He broke my trance. Don't that make you suspicious
That there's something the dead are keeping back?
Yes, there's something the dead are keeping back.
- Robert Frost, "Two Witches"
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| random notes & quotes |
[18 Mar 2005|05:15pm] |
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okay. a little closer to calm. |
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melanie doane - i can't take my eyes off you |
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• i still haven't written about the end of my reoccuring dream. i promised myself i'd write it over two weeks ago. such is life. at least the dream i still need to write about is still quite vivid in my head.
• andy tried to pick a fight in ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) asian_pride last night. okay, not a fightfight, but people read what they want to read, you know? but anyway, it was just frickin hilarious. andy msn'd me something rather vague about people getting upset at him in this asian community, and i was like "i'm on the way" and he was all like "okay, the name of the community is... oh... nevermind... i see your posts". haha * feels proud *
• speaking of andy, he is SUCH an lj invader, everyone reading this should go and invade his journal and tell him how rude he is. or, at the very least, steal his secrets to the strawberry-cinammon pancakes. =)
• i do enjoy practicing my magicks on people. i found perseph a fanfic she forgot she wrote (i don't know how many) years ago; before he could blink, i was already backing andy up in a community that i didn't even know existed two seconds earlier; and i found a way to continue a conversation with nat that we put on hold over a year ago (fourteen months, but who's counting? *wink*)... but i'm still uncomfortable with the label of 'charmer'... i think i prefer 'lurker'. ;)
• i have also discovered that i am a quotemancer. and even scarier, there's other people on lj that try to teach buffyology.
• i've finally decided (i think) on a willara scene to base my new banner on. i think i'm going with 5.19, when willow finds tara at the world's fair. because it breaks my heart to think of the mental baggage that is haunting two of my dearest fellow willara shippers (willow_fans unite).
• is it just me, or are the burger king veggie burgers reallyreally good??
• i was recently asking joss why he decided to use fiction to teach us the most important lessons in life. you know, i was curious as to why he didn't like, go door to door distributing the bible or selling copies of the watchtower (or, 'the watch[ers]tower' as i imagine he would've have named it)... and he just told me to watch 'storyteller' again...buffy : "stop it!"
andrew: "i, was just..."
buffy : "NO MORE."
andrew: "but... i just i... just, want the world to SEE what you do."
buffy : "what i do... is TOO IMPORTANT to show the world."
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| more than i can handle |
[17 Mar 2005|10:29pm] |
"what are you gonna do, b, kill me? you become me. you're not ready for that..."
- faith, 3.17 "enemies"
i didn't even bother to try and put together something eloquent or poetic or charming to grab your attention. this will make sense to my target audience, and right now, in 'this' world, and 'this' entry, that's all that matters.
so, dear champion of the people, how have you been these past few days? feel free to use buffy examples if you wish... they don't (necessarily) need to relate to each other... what matters is that they relate to you...
( you have been warned. )
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| i'm really not a duck |
[17 Mar 2005|08:35pm] |
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avril lavigne - knockin' on heaven's door |
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seriously, i'm not a duck. i signed into my brand new messenger account just now and saw the sweetest thing. well... erm... it is if you're a total nerd. i don't like people stealing glimpses of my windows desktop. so don't look.
( Mobb Deep - 11 - Hell on Earth (FRONT LINES).mp3 )
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| strawberries & cinammon |
[17 Mar 2005|12:10am] |
today was okay. i got no work or reading done. but it's okay. there was is, of course, the usual white noise in my head. but i'd be lying if there wasn't any good distractions.
andy came over today with his first attempt at strawberry cinammon pancakes. and for something made from scratch and inspired without anything lame like a recipe, they were incredible. better than any pancake i'd ever made from scratch or from aunt jemima mix (let's keep this little pancake inferiority between us. lol). little brandon and little andrew had some, but i think my mother and i enjoyed them the most. =)
still there was head noise, but persephone and i played icon_mancing for a while. and i felt better. she and ~lara~ are so cool with the distraction thinger. i am grateful they chose lj.
and then nat showed up, i was SO HAPPY to hear that her day at the office was not broken. because i will never forget what it was like to be employed there, and it's incredibly hard to not worry about someone you love when you simply cannot be there to give them that real hug or make them that real cup of tea.
overall, i would give today a score of 6.5. sorry about the lame entry. goodnight.
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| "and i forgot" |
[16 Mar 2005|08:14pm] |
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"...you know, so you stand in front of the mirror and you work up all these really eloquent and poetic things you're gonna say when you finally bump into them and... and then all of sudden, one day, there they are, right in front you... and... you can't say a thing. and then the light changes, and they're gone... and you never got to say what you so badly wanted to say..."
- sarah mclachlan, mirrorball dvd
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| "i so tired" |
[16 Mar 2005|03:50am] |
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sleepy.... * clunk * |
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i have these really long entries to write and a novel to plan and old sites to update and new sites to build and photoshopping that needs to be photoshopped and lj conversations that need to be invaded and seemingly endless potentials that need more training before 7x22. erm... maybe you should ignore that last part. but to make it worse, i was mentally working on four different heartfelt emails most of the all day in my head. but, as usual, they'll have to wait for another day. i so tired (please don't think it's because i don't care).
[ i did, however, get deeper into american god's, which i am VERY happy about. ]
in my last check before bed i noticed another silly quiz thinger from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) brokenmirror84. although i don't post any myself, i still find them very cute. even though they are often wrong (and have worse spelling and grammar than i do. lol), but i saw hers and i thought it might make me look all cool if i could post the same result. but in my first try i got a different result. and for some reason it bothered me. i didn't really like it. i was going for ideal lover and got... charmer??? erm... bleh.
( i hope someone says this doesn't sound like me )
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| wallychamp strikes again |
[15 Mar 2005|04:01pm] |
k, so i'm already itching for a new lj banner. don't get me wrong, i am SO still into the frillow concept. but i just want a new banner. i wouldn't mind suggestions for characters, that... umm... aren't from the L word (until i get to watch. ha!).
( in the meantime, yes, i suppose men are... )
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| tap into the water, try to bring my share |
[15 Mar 2005|01:50pm] |
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this is so sad, because the world really was almost okay there for a moment. and now i'm noticing that some people can't help but resent you when you seem happy. what a fucking shame. even members of your own family or some of your closer friends might start 'acting different' toward you because they think your life is so beautiful and perfect while their's is still in toilet. in some cases, they'll even do what they can to try and bring you 'back' down. i have no time for this, i really don't.
because the world is on fire, it is more than i can handle, but i do tap into the water and try to bring my share. because the world is worth saving. and there's people behind me that i can help protect from the fire. and, of course, there's people standing RIGHT BESIDE me, bringing their share to try and put out the impossible. but if you look at a little patch that i managed to successfully put out, and it makes you so jealous that you want to drop your water bucket and just JUMP INTO the flames... or maybe drop your bucket and just walk away from the fight... i'm not going to follow you. because i'm too busy fighting alongside the people i want to fight with. the people that look at the world and feel sad because they cannot give MORE than they already have.
i'm sorry if all you can think about is what this world owes YOU. but i wouldn't be much a champ if i turn my back on you people. you know where to find me, where to find us. we're at the battlefront, just trying to bring our share.
[ did you know: sarah's 'angel' was actually inspired by a documentary about a heroin addict? ]
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| maybe iLarm sounds better? |
[14 Mar 2005|09:20am] |
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so i made this really nice lj banner for her, and i sent it, and i felt all proud. but then she sends me a copy of the banner she was working on, and it made me feel all photoshop-rookie like. heh. but at least i have an excuse, no one ever taught me how to use the bugger. so i guess i should just be glad that i'm not getting laughed at (that much).
i am a far bigger nerd than you think. i have no alarm clock. really. the only alarm clock i ever had died like, too long ago to remember. then i used my pager for a while, until i got too cheap to buy batteries anymore. ha. so a while ago i wrote this simple program called eLarm, that would repeat any pleasant or annoying sound i desired at any specified time on my pc until stopped or snoozed. and THAT is my alarm. and it WORKS. hehe. i'd love to hear a story more nerdy+ghetto then than that. lmao.
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| too much to write |
[13 Mar 2005|12:05am] |
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watching the sky fall |
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hoobastank - the reason |
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i was downstairs making orange juice earlier and i got struck with this indescribable yet unmistakable feeling of horror. like... something very bad was happening or had recently happened to someone i care about. i hate this feeling. this one is INCREDIBLY bad. i... i don't know what to (do) say... or write. maybe i just need to get some (seemingly) insignicant good news or i just need to hear...err... read, a funny lj comment or something. damn me. damn this feeling.
i'm shopping for a new lj username. as, well, eddy noble doesn't really exist anymore. my name's ty anyway. =/ but it occurs to me that i would then be giving YOU the perfect chance to be rid of me once and for all. ha. would you add my new username? i wonder. seriously.
[L] hasn't returned any of my emails or msgs in over two weeks now. i am the world's most horrible person. i don't even know if i deserve any lj friends (do i?). i wish someone would tell me it's okay (even though it's not).
( 'we are pushed and shoved by the butterflies' )
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| frillow tree |
[11 Mar 2005|09:00am] |
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 a bit accomplished. |
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made my first frillow banner slash layout. i hope people like it! i think it's lovely! =)
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